For the past 30 years, there was nothing I wanted more than a deeper connection with God. I wanted nothing more than to be good so I could spend eternity in heaven.
I never wanted to be an atheist. Ever. I thought my husband and his family were hypocritical assholes for celebrating Christmas, but never Christ. They never went to church. My husband, in fact, is an atheist by default.
I actually stumbled upon atheism after doing some work trying to figure out how the bible started, and what my religion looked like before the Bible was created. I was trying to deeper my connection with God & religion.
Anyone else ever feel this way around Christmas? And advice?